The above quote comes from Penny (penpalgal).. reminding me that the month of June will go smoothly as long as I eat it 'one day at a time' :)
thanks Penny :)
I have mixed emotions regarding next month.. Im stressed out thinking about all I have to do yet.. before company arrives.. before my baby graduates high school.. before the release of Pfatt marketplace happens.. I've been screaming for "CALGON" for the past week and nothing has happened!
Im excited and can't wait to see my mom in law..and my parents.. i soo miss them..and miss having them around whenever I need a hand with something. I miss them just popping in for a cup of coffee. I miss going for walks with them. I miss the stories that my dad tells. I miss my mom worrying and wringing her hands over the little things and me talking her down. I miss my mother in laws positive outlook on life that all will work out. I miss just having them near.
But before they arrive..there's so much to prepare and get ready. There's graduation plans to be made.. food to be ordered..shopping to be done..groceries to fetch.. beds to move.. a camper to be cleaned and stocked.. a huge house to dust and clean. Then there's the birthdays that fill this month.. My sister's on the 6th. My neice's (her daughter) on the 10th. My dad's and Father's Day on the 17th. Tj's on the 19th. Tim's sisters on the 24th. Throw in graduation on the 15th. Combining all the parties into one day on the 17th! (can i scream for calgon yet...or should i just break out the Jack???)
My mom in law arrives on the 6th. We camp for one nite on the 7th. The 8th & 9th will be spent preparing the pages for Marketplace. The 13th my folks arrive. Graduation on the 15th. Party on the 17th. The 18th my mom in law leaves. The 20th my folks leave.
This is how I feel some days.. like im watching the world go by..its all happening way to fast..and I feel like im just some little bug.. wandering .. lost..
Feeling like TJ is 'skating' away too fast..and i have no control anymore.. just wanting to slow it down.. to hold on .. to hope for more hugs .. to hear more 'i love you mom'..
wanting to be that 'moth on the tree' ..that is happy just being.. just floating about.. not having a care in the world..
watching the baby skunks meander along the hillside.. looking for treats.. not caring that im just a foot away busily snapping their pictures.. hoping not to get 'sprayed'!
hoping that the kids find their path in this big crazy world..and manage to somehow keep growing and finding their way.. but still wanting them to keep their roots here with me.. with us.. at home..
and loving pictures like these with the 'thumbs up' signal that all is going according to plan..that all is well..that i overthink things too much...that i worry too much..and just need to 'let it happen'..and trust that everything will be okay.
So..im trying to hold the words the Penny told me this morning .. "how do you eat an elephant? one day at a time" :)
i can do this
i can do this
i can do this